Excuse the childish histrionics, I'll be back soon
Theatre was never something that my mom and step-dad were really interested in. When I was in H.S. they came to shows, but didn't really say anything about them - I never got praise, criticism, "that sucked", anything. My mom tried, but still never got into it. I never really held it against them or anything, it just wasn't their thing, and I accept that, much the way I don't give a rat's ass about who won the Michigan/Georgia football game, but I appreciate that they do. My dad and step-mom, on the other hand have always been totally geeked about the whole theatre thing, and were very encouraging, but that's only because we only see eachother once a year; they feel like they need to compensate, or they aren't used to theatre 24/7 from me, so it's all a new, interesting world to them, where as it's old new to my mom and step-dad.
Anyway.
Last year I didn't mind when they (Mom and Step-dad) didn't come to see Pericles or The Fifth Sun. Of course I would have liked them to go, but.....whatever. However I've been super psyched about Six Characters in a way that I haven't been in a really long time. This was sort of me proving to them that I can do this, that I'm not here taking up basket-weaving. And Mom seemed really excited, too. When I got cast I ran away right after looking at the list and called her, not that she knew anything about the show, but I just wanted to say "Look! See what I can do! This is big!" and she was genuinely happy for me.They aren't coming.
Got e-mail today. And I'm upset. Really upset. I don't know why I'm so upset. Well, okay, I do, but I don't want that to matter to me. I really wanted them to be there this time. And Brother and Sister, too; I want them to be exposed to theatre. I don't want to be feeling the way I do, but I am. I never thought it would matter this much to me, but it does. What makes it worse is that Audrey's family has been to every one of my shows. All of them. And they're coming to this one, too.
Gah. Stop crying, you're being ridiculous.
posted by Spark of Life @ 11/12/2004 01:33:00 PM
2 Comments:
since they aren't that "in" to theatre, maybe the lack of praise means you are doing well. If they were "in" to it they would praise you up and down if you did well or not, but if you did poorly(parish the thought) they would give you lots of praise because they didn't want you to know that they felt that way. I realize after writing this, that it made much more sense in my head, but I will post it anyway. Just kinda hard to explain in writing I guess...
Tim Griffith
No, I completely understand what you're saying. We're like this *motions to eyes*.
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