Friday, April 23, 2004

At what point in my life did I become a tease?

My cousin Adam (who I hope won't mind my using his situation for my benefit) e-mailed me the other day with a girl problem. He has had a crush on a girl for some time, and she has apparently reciprocated his feelings by stufying with him, and going on a semi-date; however, the other day, she informed Adam that she was spoken for. This flustered Adam quite a bit: why would she hang out with someone without having an intention of taking it further, he asked. I replied by saying that I personally have lots of guy friends who I hang with all the time, but have no romantic intentions for.

That got me to thinking about something that people have started telling me recently: I am a tease. Greg in particular has been telling me this a lot, but he's a gomer, and I thought he was just teasing (still got me riled up, though); even when Bonnie and Adam Adolpho joined in, I just thought it was all in good fun. However, the conversation came up again, and Meghan (naked cartwheels in the woods Meghan) concurred that I was something of a tease, in the sense that I don't know that I'm a tease, which makes me one even moreso, I guess. That's what got me. I repsect Meghan's opinion more than almost anyone's, so for her to suppoort the argument..........I just laid back and went "dude."

Looking back at all the would-be relationships with John, Wicks, James, and Tim (well, not so much Tim. actually not at all with Tim), I was just trying to be friends with them, and things just got out of hand. I hung out with them as friends, and I guess I made them think that there could be something more.......? Is that what makes me a tease? I don't know. This has been really frustrating me. I haven't been interested in anyone in ages - who would I be teasing? I don't know how I'm a tease. I don't flirt. At all. Seriously. Unless I'm interested in someone, or they're my friend who I'm just playing around with, I don't flirt. Ever. I'm not that type of person. It's always been this standard that theatre guys are touchy feely, and flirt all the time, even if they're just you friend. Especially if they're just your friend. They're like another girlfriend (sorry, guys). So I guess I never thought that by playing off of them in that way, I would be giving off the impression that I was interested in them. I certainy never thought they were interested in me when they acted that way. I don't know.

Random quote that doesn't apply, but I thought was noteworthy:
"Kids today are just in it for the quick orgasm." - Chad Kinsman

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