I have a small situation. Another one. Well, I met Wicks at auditions for the mainstages and we hit it off a bit. Yesterday we spent 3 hours sitting together in the lounge. Last night I went with him to play video games with Speck and Jenn. That was all good and fun, I really sucked at Mario Kart, but that's beside the point. He walked me home......and......stuff.....Yeah. Then I immediatley got that feeling that I always get when I learn that a guy reciprocates the feelings that I have for him: GET OUT!!!! I don't know what's with me, but the moment I learn that some one feels the same way as I feel about them, I freak. It's like I hear the word "relationship" and this great big siren goes off in my head. And then there's that whole thing with Tim back home (who, by the way, wrote me this e-mail containing a poem, and telling me how much I reminded him of this elf he's reading about). I'm so screwed. I haven't got a clue what to do. I didn't want any of this crap to happen; I hate drama. I mean, I wasn't even looking for a guy. Argh. When it rains, it pours.

Didn't get called back or cast in either of the mainstages. No biggie, but I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't disappointed. I auditioned for the downstages today. Here's hoping.

"Sometimes love will pick you up by the short hairs...and jerk the heck out of you."